My personal story of struggling to find balance begins back when I was a kid, and I did chores as a way of showing my affection, worth, and capabilities.
As much as I hated some of the responsibilities left to me as a kid like cleaning horse stalls, loading cattle bails, and you know the typical picking up dog shit, I did it. And I did it with great efficiency and pride that I did a good job too — no matter what.
“We don’t half-ass around here” my mom use to say…
But that controlling, need to prove my work ethic, and even worth to others through my abilities has also led to a lot of internal battles and struggle finding inner peace.
As wonderful as being a go-getter can be, it’s also a recipe for burnout and lack of balance of any kind. Which years later, when becoming an Entrepreneur with my own business and work hours, proved to be still a major issue.
I found myself working 16+ hours on my computer, all because I could. Month after month, thing after thing I enjoyed, and made time for or previously did before my business - started to disappear out of my schedule.
I ate, slept, and breathed business. Everyday - all day. It was all I talked about, thought about, and even dreamt about. It was my greatest fear to fail, but also my thriving passion to succeed that led me down a spiraling path of ultimately losing my happiness.
I lost friendships. I faced major obstacles in my marriage. I separated myself from my family because they didn’t understand my drive… Work-life balance didn’t exist anywhere within a 10 mile radius of me and I had no idea how it had gotten this way.
But through a lot of personal work, spiritual coaches, programs, personal development courses, seminars and books, I learned it was my lack of balance all along.
Or boundaries some might say. Either way, I had none, and knowing that I went on a man-hunt to find out how I could get back what I lost… What I pushed away and deemed so unimportant.